Visceral loss...

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Gone

words by Luna

I awoke to find you Gone.

Lying there
my ears straining for just one sound
just one small sign of your presence

but there was none.

I could feel the silence like a viscid web
entangling my mind and limbs
threatening to bind me to this spot
this state
this middle dimension
between what was and what now must be.

If I just lie here and never move
maybe I can hold myself suspended in time…

Never having to face the emptiness.
Never turning to see the vacant place beside me.
Never feeling the unceasing pain.
Never needing to greet the new day alone.

Better yet,
to fall back into the comforting arms
of perpetual, nepenthean slumber…
lost in the forever dream
of the sweet memories of yesterday.

But my arrested existence could never bring back yours.

So I rise
and move through my days,
feeling your absence keenly…
like the ever-present phantom ache
of a missing limb.

© 2007 Luna Jade

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